i’ve certainly been feeling it a lot lately, being lonely. i cant help but feel like if i have a boyfriend or some boy who likes me that i’ll be cured of this disease but it probably isn’t true. im searching, but i guess now is not the time.
i should probably start to accept this by now but things like my friends and their boyfriends and my not having many friends are constant reminders to this fact. also, it’s sad to admit this but i haven’t even kissed a boy yet.
i have a tendency to obsess about a guy i don’t even know and find out many random things about them. it’s not my doing it’s just an unwanted freaky talent i have… so to get to the point, i think i found that i’m looking for an amazing guy that doesn’t exist and think that they can make me feel less lonely.
and then this led me to becoming boy obsessed. maybe one day i’ll learn that i don’t have to rely on guys. but for now, i still have the same mindset and am always on the lookout for cute guys.
it’s something called an obsession…